damaged!

I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say
And you can't take back what you've taken away
Cause I feel you, I feel you near me - damaged/plumb

those lines are so human...
sering kita, manusia, ga bisa bilang yang bener2 pgn kita bilang. apalagi kalo itu ada hubungannya sama p.e.r.a.s.a.a.n.

seperti, uhm... satu cerita temen, it's pretty sad...
he has this feeling to a girl...
dia gak bisa ngedefinisiin perasaannya, campuran antara suka-care-sayang-pengen bareng terus-ngerasa secure sama dia dan perasaan takut-ga mungkin-ga bisa-ga berani-ga mau juga.
Aduh lieur! Tapi itu yang terjadi... antara pengen banget tapi takut karena ga bisa. Pheewww.. (i was just breath-taking and exhaling)
yang ada, dia ngerasa damaged, dia ngerasa rusak, rusak perasaannya... sakit yang ga ada juntrungannya, yang ga ada titiknya.

semoga dia bisa nemuin orang lain yang bisa fixing the damage... tapi, deep down inside my heart, i hope there's still a little damage left in his heart so he will not forget about us ;p

parah.. saat kita udah berhasil ngilangin satu bayangan, dan banyangan itu udah gak keliatan, tapi.. kita masih bisa ngerasainnya...

1st song in 28

friday, june 11th, 21.30-23sthing with "talented tomiboi"

-US-
U & Me, we got our own way
u go that way, I go this way
there's nothin' in this world would-
lead us to walk on the same path (same path)
coz u got your plan
I can't keep up, coz I had enuff nomore of your crappy stuff

my mind, would say no (no no.. no)
my heart, would reject so...
my thought, would not believe...
but all my body, said... I miss U, I want U...

(based on the conversation of zessy & me May 9th about the guyz... and some of my thought from May 11th--- all in my coffee break book!)

gotta' thank the guyz, for sucha' feeling, for sucha' pain, for sucha' words...

cafe mocha matters a lot!

doesn't matter if i had my wednesday right next to me
doesn't matter if i had my summer sunshine smiling at me
doesn't matter if i had nothing at all in me
as long as i have my cafe mocha, i still can go on...

kangen... kangen dayberries hot cafe mocha!
pengen ngupiiii... huhuhu....

age: 28

quote of 2day:
(master & sea commander: bla bla bla)
Capt. Jack Aubrey: Would you call me an aged man-o-war, Doctor? The Surprise is not old. No one would call her old. She has a bluff bow, lovely lines. She's a fine sea bird - weatherly, stiff and fast. Very fast. If she's well handled. No, she's not old. She's in her prime.

lyric of 2day:
(queen i want to break free)
I want to break free, I want to break free
I want to break free from your lies
You're so self satisfied I don't need you
I've got to break free
God knows, God knows I want to break free

I've fallen in love
I've fallen in love for the first time
And this time I know it's for real
I've fallen in love, yeah
God knows, God knows I've fallen in love
It's strange but it's true
I can't get over the way you love me like you do
But I have to be sure, When I walk out that door
Oh how I want to be free baby, Oh how I want to be free
Oh how I want to break free

But life still goes on
I can't get used to living without, living without
Living without you by my side
I don't want to live alone, hey
God knows got to make it on my own
So baby can't you see, I've got to break free
I've got to break free, I want to break free, yeah
I want, I want, I want, I want to break free....

PS.
Dear God... thank U for giving me another year to live... thank U for the love... thank U for letting me feel the love, the vibe, the pain, the emptiness, all the feeling i've had... thank U for the sunshine, the rainy and cloudy day, the windy fall, the hopes over the rainbow...

* before turnin' 28 ;p

summer sunshine - the corrs

Everyone's changing, I stay the same
I'm a solo cello outside a chorus
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm

Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?

You tell me you have to go...

In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?

Don't tell me you have to go...

In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm

The heat.....

In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows

In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

It's June ;)

I've been in my fall and winter... I'm feeling my spring and i know summer will come along...
cl107

(talkin' bout sunday...)
I ain't feel the spark, either the ache
I ain't feel the vibe, either the pain
I ain't feel the hope, I feel plain
But I gotta miz U, coz u're my sunday
My sunday, don't go away, i need u to stay
Don't care what people say.
Any price i will pay, I will find a way to keep U, my sunday...
(sunday, june 6th 2k4, 01.45am - from my coffee break book)