so much for 2day... *sigh*

So much for 2day... hm... yup yup... been there... pastinya dalam hidup harus ada suatu situasi dan kondisi yang ngebuat hati kita menclos dan ngomong, so much for 2day!
Dehan: udah dimarain nyokap, ditilang, ditabrak motor mobilnya... (she said, can't express the feeling into words!)
Ega: dengan keparnoannya, dengan ke-gakpastian-nya, dengan entah apa yang ada di kepala dan hatinya (he said, if u were me, what would u feel about all this?)
XxXx: ribet sama yang dkerjain, telfon rang ring, sms titutitut, msg piles up, curhat from almost anyone, huaaa... (she said, if only things get easier...)
Whuah... one short prayer is what w'all need!

Alloohumma la sahla illa maa ja-'altahuu sahlan wa anta taj-'alul hazna idzaa syi'ta sahlan.
Ya Allah, tiada kemudahan kecuali apa yang Engkau jadikan mudah dan Engkau kuasa menjadikan kesulitan apabila Engkau kehendaki sebagai kemudahan.

things get easier... at least inside the heart...

no no no, i'm not broken!

dari empat ribu dua ratus sembilan puluh tujuh orang yang liat blog ini, rata-rata mereka berasumsi, odit lagi patah hati (again???).
Hahahaha... dari situ juga banyak yang mencari kesempatan dari situasi yang disangka ini (hm.. sms2 ga penting, ngajak makan, nonton sampe ngasih bunga???).
Sebelumnya, makasih banget buat rasa yang udah dikasih, simpati dan empati yang sudah tertuang (sahhh..) but i am not broken, friendz...
kalo boleh saya mengutip quote yang dibuat teman di friendster, mungkin keadaannya sama seperti ini:

Problems are never exist, it's just another
situation" (Danang R. Projosujadi)

nah, mungkin itulah yang terjadi saat ini..
tapi, saya masih seneng kok menerima ajakan2 menyenangkan itu, hahaha... happy friday then ;)

brother's diary

lucu, ke jakarta ga berasa ke jakarta kalo gak ngelakuin 3 hal ini sama adik gw, ngopi, ngebul dan curhat bareng adik gw!
hahaha... dengan modal sebungkus marlboro menthol lights, sebungkus djarum super (kayaknya itu deh rokok adik gw), 2 kopi sesuai selera di starbucks (grande please, beda 3 ribu doang!) dan cerita, wahhh... jakarta berasa "homi" banget... hauehuaheua...

sedikit oleh2 yang kayaknya bakal dijadiin:

"pedihnya bahagia denganmu"
denganmu, aku tertawa, tersenyum bahagia
nikmati rasa, hangatnya surya
aku terbawa, indahnya cinta
denganmu, aku gumamkan, berjuta doa
aku nyanyikan, semua asa
aku tuliskan, berbagai rasa
aku.. bahagia.. denganmu, sungguh!
tapi juga, denganmu, dingin melanda, saat ku terjaga
sesak di dada, saat nafas terhela
pedih melanda, karna kau pilih dia

aduh dek.. sedih banget sih... live yer life 2 da fullest, have fun n luv will come along! eh, jangan keterusan jadi angin ya... it's time for us to be loved!!!

5 top things i do to heal the wound

1. curhat.. curhat.. curhat... speak your feelings out!

to the person(s) we trust and we feel comfy telling them the story. Those who have hi-patient, who could accept our unbelievable actions like crying, then laughing, then crying again, on and on and on... this is important as well, words your feeling out to those who have warm thought and warm hug!

2. write.. write.. write...

writing, let go all the feelings inside to written-words... sekalian jadi oleh2 dari rasa pada hari itu, juga untuk nanti jadi reminder. there's two benefit in writing the feelings! if the result is good, make it a lyric for a song (lucky me have friends with the talents of making music!) second, after the hurt's gone, when we read that stuff, we will laugh at it so fuckin' loud!

3. do things that reminds u of that person

listen to the soundtrack of the story, go to the places that remind u of "that person", smell the scent that reminds u of "that person", do the things that reminds u of "that person", on and on and on... this action will knock u out, but... u get the the strength afterward. this is also some kinda' test for your feeling. u know right away if u'r still hurt or healed!

4. find all the info about "that person".

so u know how to act and react when u heard some shocking news... if u had the guts, well... keep in touch with "that person" even only by calling "that person", sending "that person" sms, whateva comfort u the most. u be the one with the "brave and big heart" rite? but please, don't give hope too much in it. consider it as one of your step to adulthood.

5. last but not least, PRAY! (i ain't preachin' here!)

yup, that's the best medicine of all time! communicate with god! u'd be able to say anything without doubts... maybe the answer doesn't come rite-away. but if u believe, u have faith in your prayer, u'd feel secure and calm... and believe me, god answers every prayer... if things don't come as u wished, believe me, that's the best thing god arrange for u. god knows what's best for us... ;)

sweet dreams prayer

got this from a prayer book.
it's a moslem prayer, but when it comes to prayer, there's only one GOD we're sending the hopes and words, rite???

in arabic:
allohumma innii as-aluka ru'yan shooli-hatan shoodiqotan ghoiro kaadzibatin naa-fi'atan ghoiro dloorrotin
in bahasa:
ya allah, aku mohon kepada-mu mimpi yang baik yang benar dan tidak dusta, yang bermanfaat dan tidak berbahaya
in english (trying hard to translate):
dear god, please give me the good, the right, beyond doubts, beneficial and harmless dreams.

guess what dream that i got last night?
huhuhu.. i met marti pellow of wet wet wet. we chat, he was so nice and handsome ;) huhuhu... and guess what so spectacular about the dream? in the middle of our chat, he asked for permission to leave for a while. he said," i want to take wudl' (bahasa inggrisnya ga tau;p)
and i watched him doing that...
whada'wonderful dream!

pernahkah...

pernahkah kamu...
berusaha menelan ludah tapi tercekat?
seperti ada batu yang menghambat
berusaha tenangkan tangan yang bergetar hebat?
seperti habis menahan batu yang sangat berat
berusaha tersenyum hebat walau sekelibat?
seperti baru diberi batu berlian sejuta karat

aku pernah...

walaupun hatiku beku seperti batu
punah hasrat
penuh cacat dan berkarat hebat

semoga gak lama lagi, ketika aku ngbaca tulisan ini, aku bakal ketawa hebat... laughing at my own f***in' face, out loud!

do u believe in L***

do you believe in l***?
do you take the chance, waiting for something
something so mysterious
even when we've thought we're in it
by the end of the story, apparently we were not
do you take the chance, waiting forever
forever in all time
even when we've felt it's coming
by the end of the time line, apparently it's expired
do you take the chance, waiting for the real thing
a real thing so surreal
even when we've got so close
by the end of the journey, apparently still far away

call me pessimistic, pathetic, l***holic

but the question remain the same,
do you believe in l***?

broken

even an angel couldn't bare to break down, when its wing is broken...
even an angel couldn't bare to fly high, when its wing is broken...

i'm no angel, i'm only a regular human

maybe i've got no wings, but when it comes to something broken,
sure it's gonna be my heart...

a week or two - march 16, 2k4

is it wrong, if i felt happy just thinkin' about you
is it wrong, if i just couldn't wait another time to see you
is it wrong, if i wanted to have me all around you
coz maybe it's just for a week or two

i'm goin' crazy when you called me on the phone
i'm losing my mind when you said you'd stop by
i'm freakin' out when you showed up and smile
it's maybe only for a week or two

i've gotta tell you the truth
if passion and a li'l fling won't hurt you
i'd be glad to be the one who give it to you
but i have to keep my heart away from you
coz maybe it's only for a week or two

just a week or two
just a week or two

but if it lasts more than a week or two
then maybe i'm willing to give an extra
a week or two

please don't hate me
coz after my "a week or two" has gone
then i realized, i wished i've said a hundred weeks or two hundreds...

...and i miss u so... (lagu ozboxshow, lupa siapa yg bawainnya)

it took me a while to pick up my courage to answer my own question.
are you gonna be my long run or just a quick-tiring sprint?
if you're gonna be my long run, do i have that much energy to spare?
but if you're only gonna be my quick-tiring sprint, i wish it won't be only a 100 metres long, i want it to be hundreds of 100 metres long...

coz i, still wanna be with you...
no matter how tiring it's gonna be...