there's something about us

****IT MIGHT NOT BE THE RIGHT TIME
I MIGHT NOT BE THE RIGHT ONE
BUT THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT US
I WANT TO SAY ..
COZ THERE'S SOMETHING BETWEEN US ANYWAY
****I MIGHT NOT BE THE RIGHT ONE
IT MIGHT NOT BE THE RIGHT TIME
BUT THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT US
I'VE GOT TO DO....
SOME KIND OF SECRET I WILL SHARE WITH YOU
****I NEED YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN MY LIFE
I WANT YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN MY LIFE
I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYONE IN MY LIFE
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE IN MY LIFE

(daftpunk)

sometimes, we just did something that makes us wanna kill ourselves after doing it...
but it's just too late when we realized, how silly it was!
nothing we could do to turn back the time.
all we can do is, hoping that the best to come, but still prepare for the worst thing as well...

dear u, maaf ya.. ga maksud kok!
(kayak dia tau elo punya blogspot aja sih ditttt.... ;p)
tau ah.. lieur... pusing... aneh...

sisa-sisa ujan...
dingin...
ngantuk!

bertiga di kamar 217

ujan, dingin, bertiga di kamar 217... cito, o'o and me...
baru di sini gw ngerasa gonna miz a very close friend so much... (thx o'o 4 the "have a nice day" song)

we've had so many good and bad times together...

he's my friend, my "papa" in our own complicated family, once my room-mate for almost a year...
we've argued, we've had our own feud, we've once hadn't talked for some time...
we've shared stories almost every single day, we've laughed,
i've cried on his shoulder, he's cried on mine...
we even have our soundtracks together...

....

i'm not gonna cry in front of him... i should let him go...

....

gonna miz your hellova ideas, your smile, your nothingness...
you're everything...
....

sentimentalist me

Ujan...
dingin...
sendiri...
pengen dia ada di sini... ;)

I love you
for sentimental reasons,
I hope you do believe me,
I've given you my heart

I love you
and you alone were meant for me
please give your loving heart to me
and say we'll never part

I think of you every morning
Dream of you every night
Darling I'm never lonely
whenever you are in sight

I love you
for sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I've given you my heart

I love you for sentimental reasons
I hope you do believe me
I've given you my heart.

(nat king cole - recycle fave by john pizzarelli)

aku kesepian

apakah aku kesepian?
beruntungnya aku punya banyak teman, beberapa sahabat dan "teman dekat".
apakah aku kesepian?
---
pagi adalah semangatku, siang adalah rekan kerjaku, sore adalah sahabatku, malam adalah cintaku...
apakah aku masih kesepian?
---
angin selalu redakan galauku, bintang tetap setia dengar resahku, matahari dan bulan berlomba hadirkan secercah senyumku...
apakah aku merasa kesepian?
---
sepertinya aku sekarang sedang merasa kesepian, seharian aku tidak bisa menikmati senyumannya... dan aku tidak berani bilang rasa yang ada.
---
hhh... aku mulai merasa kesepian...

ujan...

ujan.. dingin... dingiiiinnnn....
---
untungnya, gw ngrasa anget... hati gw lagi enak, nyaman, kayak ada perapian kecil yang ngangetin ;p
"dapet" hari pertama, pms ga terasa... yang ada senyum dan ketawa terus biarpun ga penting sama acit...
lagu "friends" nya mocca berasa lagu gw bangetttthhhh....
name any sad song... i'd listen, i'd sing along, with smile ;)
---
untungnya, masa-masa itu udah beres dan terlewati dengan sukses...
kebayang, ujan, dingin, sakit hati.... pengen mati...
untungnya... semua itu sudah terlalui...
---
dear the up above, tq so much ;)
---
di ruang library, lagi muter tamia officially missing u, eh, ada yg bergetar gitu... si relung hati nih ;p hauehuaiehaa......

probably, it's a song 4 u!

I probably want to hold your hand
I probably want to kiss you
you'll probably misunderstand
I'll probably miss you
lately it seem nothing's clear
I probably need my glasses
you come in and out of focus
I wonder if you notice

I probably love you
I probably love you
the grass is probably green
the sky is probably blue
I'd probably do anything for you
I probably love you

you probably know just what I'm thinking
you probably don't feel like I do
you probably think I'm crazy
it's probably true
lately everything's changed
I hardly know who I am
my heart pounds
I can't sleep
I've come to this conclusion

what is it about you
that makes you different from the rest
you touch a part of me
I didn't know exsists

I probably love you
probably do

I probably love you
I probably love you
probably

lisa loeb - probably - #35 di oz weekly top 40 countdown ;)

se-poll-poll-nya!!!

disuruh acit, nulis apa yg gw mau dari "the one", se-poll-poll-nya!
lemme' try... (using my imagination as well) tentunya di luar "sayang dan cinta dan setia sama gw, itu sih udah pastiiii..."

1. ngerti gw bgt
2. smart, wawasan luas
3. seneng seni, terutama musik dan film (ga komplen kalo gw sing along)
4. manja ke gw dan bisa manjain gw balik lbh edan ;p
5. sekolahnya bener, pekerja keras
6. manhood value ;p
7. PUNYA IMPIAN YANG BAKAL DIUSAHAIN UNTUK DIWUJUDIN!
8. agamanya bagus
9. ga genit ke orang laen
10. mau diajak "gila" ;)
11. bisa bikin gw yg moody ini "adem"
12. sweet smile, sparkling eyes ;)
13. aktif berbahasa inggris (naonnnn???)
14. (masalah "itu" nyusul ah, natural kok, hauiehuiahea...)
15. ada chemistry-nya sama gw
16. get along sama temen2 gw dan keluarga gw
17. ga plin-plan
18. memperjuangkan GW!*
19. sopan, tau manner

apalagi ya... ga kepikiran... nanti deh disambung lagi...
keterangan: * dia gagal di point ini, hiks... dan itu adalah point penting... tapi... mungkin dia emang ga pengen... hauehuaheua...

what about love???

What if i took my time to love you
What if i put no one above you
what if i did the things that really mattered
What if i ran through hoops of disaster

No-one would care if we had neva made it
We're in this alone so why dont we face it
There is no room to blame one another
We just need time to forgive each other

What about love...
What about feeling...
What about all the things that make life worth living
What about faith
What about trust
And tell me baby what about us

How can I give this love a new beginning
How can I stop the rain its neva ending
How do i keep my soul believing
Memories of how we should b keep calling

Oh baby
I'll take the rivers right
I'll take the happy times
I'll take the moments of disaster

ps.what about us??? is there still "us"??? what "us"??? hauiehauiea...

she's single now

have u ever felt so fuckin' terrified by knowing someone became single again? that some is now available? that someone now has all the rights to be with someone else?

------
i am so terrified------

coz i know the wall now is no longer there...

:(

the door now is opened wide... all he needs now is one step closer to the heart (maybe he's already taken the steps...)

i'm so confused, dunno what to do...

i feel like cryin'.. coz i know, it's gonna be the real goodbye :(

web.tickle.com ---> relationship test something about single!

the result after 3 or 4 pages of test...

claudia, you're single because you don't want to commit

Once the blush of first love wears off with your partners, do you get a little antsy? You probably crave excitement in all realms of your life, and you need a relationship to keep you filled with possibilities. Let us guess: Someone has probably told you that you haven't quite grown up yet, that you're still holding out for the perfect "whatevers" (job, car, home, date) in your life to come a knockin'. Or perhaps you're just having a difficult time accepting that your comfortable little place in this world is always growing, always evolving — and that means you have to be willing to accept big life changes, too. Not that there's anything wrong with that. After all, you're probably a lot of fun to be around and may be the life of the party.

But when it comes to settling down, you leave without looking back twice. Now's the time to ask yourself: Why? What's holding you back? Maybe you don't want someone to get to know you fully? Perhaps by saying "yes" to someone, you're afraid you'll lose yourself, or the possibility of something better coming along. Just remember that the best relationships are those that never stop growing. That's something you can identify with, right? So keep that in mind next time you find someone you're really comfortable with. You never know, it may prove even more exciting once you really get to know each other, teensy flaws and all.

aaaahhhh.. masaaaaa??? iya siiihhh.. hauheuiahaa... ga smua bener tapinya ah!

oleh-oleh dari QB

sambil nyari postcard, jalan2 ke setiabudhi market, berakhir di QB

oleh-oleh dari QB (1)

ada satu buku, tentang intimacy. kenapa orang takut dengan intimacy.
ada satu hal yang sangat make sense...
kita sering bilang ke orang yg lagi kita cinta, "i will love u for the rest of my life, forever..." padahal kita ga kan pernah tau masa depan kita seperti apa. what's forever gonna be for us...
kalo aja kita mau jujur ke diri kita dan ke orang yg kita cinta itu, seharusnya yang kita bilang adalah, "saat ini aku cinta kamu banget, semua rasa itu cuma ke kamu. tapi aku ga tau nanti, dan aku harap kamu bisa maafin aku untuk ketidaktauan aku untuk rasaku di masa datang..."
apakah statement pertama akan lebih menyejukkan hati? tentu iya... kita ngedapetin rasa secure knowing that we'll be loved forever... tapi apa kabar kalo ternyata kenyataannya berbeda? dan kita akan terngiang dengan kata "forever" itu? ngerasa diboongin, ngerasa gak diadilin sama pernyataan dari masa lalu.
apakah statement kedua lebih fair? gak juga, kesannya seperti "mengambil kesempatan" yang ada aja. tapi kalo kita mau sadar dengan "que sera-sera", pasti kita bakal lebih nyaman dengan pernyataan kedua, knowing that it might happen to our lives... manusiawi kan ketidaktauan kita akan masa depan...
dua pernyataan itu sama-sama menyakitkan kalo kita, saat rasa itu masih ada, ternyata orang yg kita sayangin udah ga ngerasa hal itu juga...

...kinda tired with all this love stuff... tapi bagus juga buat pencerahan hati ;)

oleh-oleh dari QB (2)
dari buku lainnya, yg masih juga bicara tentang cinta ;p

dari si pengarang yang udah 20 taun mempelajari human behaviour...
"sebenarnya saat kita merasa jatuh cinta, kita bukan jatuh cinta kepada "a person". tapi lebih tepat kalau dikatakan kita jatuh cinta pada "perasaan yang ditimbulkan" saat kita bersama dengan orang itu atau saat memikirkan orang itu."

sangat masuk akal... karena saat perasaan kepada orang itu hilang, kita ga jatuh cinta lagi... kita males sama orang itu... padahal orangnya masih ada tuh, ga kemana-mana... kalo aja kita bisa jatuh cinta bener-bener ke "a person" there'll be no "other person".

...dasar manusia, egois banget yah, jatuh cinta aja kok ke perasaan sendiri...

a great distraction!

i have found a great distraction... with a sweet smile, but miles away.. so far away...

dear u,
apa kabar? hope life's been good to u. i have to admit, kinda hard to let go all the things i used to have with u.
but like usher said
"So why don't you go your way,
and I'll go mine
Live ur life
And I'll live mine
Baby, u'll do well
And I'll be fine
'cause we're better off separated..."
(hauheuiahea... jayuz bener seeehhh???)

we're just not meant to be at this moment. dunno about the future tho'.
makasih buat semua yang pernah dibagi ke aku, mulai dari waktu, tenaga, rasa, materi, semuanya... berharga banget deh!
take a good care of yourself, ok... wiz u all the best in life, hun!

(can't wait till monday...)

wednesday, there's always be something!!!

rabu adalah hari lahir gw. banyak hal spektakuler terjadi di hari rabu...

- ally mcbeal dulu taon 2002 diputer hari rabu (whaaat???)
- gw pernah buat lagu "miss u most on wednesday" di hari rabu
- pernah "ada deh" sama "ada deh" di hari "ada deh" (jelas2 rabu) dengan begitu "ada deh" pokonya rasanya "ada deh" seruuu...
- lulus kuliah hari rabu
- ketrima di oz hari rabu
- diputusin hari rabu (bukan diputusin sih, udahan... secara ga jelas)
- paling sibuk kerja hari rabu
- dulu taon 2000-an, siaran pagi 6-9, jam 14-16, jam 21-22, di hari rabu (sampe gempor)
- jaman jadi music director, rabu adalah radio day (apa seee?)
- hari rabu ini, ada yg ngajakin "ada deh"
- hari rabu ini, gw sing along "sedih tak berujung" dengan tersenyum dan tertawa... (sebelumnya ceurik eduinzzz..)

semoga ada hari-hari rabu spektakuler lainnya... amin...

begadang (lagi) bersama mojang-mojang P3K

sambil nunggu pemasangan mixer baru... keren! KLOTZ! tiba-tiba terkumpulah diana, putri dan sheila... sesi curhitz...

WHAT'S WRONG WITH ALL THE GUYS???
pertanyaan itu muncul secara bersamaan!
diana yang lagi galau dengan pacarnya yang bilang udah males sama dia (lagi sayang2nya padahal teh si diana...)
putri yang bingung dengan pernyataan seseorang yang bilang ga bisa long distance relationship (tapi kalo lo di jakarta gw lo harus jadi milik gw)
sheila dengan keabsurdan "status" yang mungkin akan terus mengambang entah kemana
si gw dengan ke-gak-berarah-annya... (wuidiiihh... naon seh, dit?)

sebenarnya... kalo aja kita, para mojang, bisa dengan lebih mengarahkan segalanya (apapun itu, apalagi masalah cinta) ke arah yang lebih positif dan tanpa menilai sesuatu terlalu cepat, semuanya akan berjalan dengan baik... hehehe... gak juga sih... pada dasarnya sih, jangan terlalu cinta sama seseorang kalo ga mau sakit hati berkepanjangan...

ke diana: kalo cowok itu udah males ngehubungin elo, berarti dia udah il-fil... (jahat, tapi that's true!)
ke putri: anjirrr.. if i ain't got u, lagu gw juga tuh!
ke sheila: sumpe lu? at least dia ngebuktiin sayangnya dengan jelas!
ke si gw: daniel bedingfield lah... (nothing hurts like love ;p)

Pheew... after all the long conversation, we agreed about one thing. KITA GAK NGERASA NYESEL, UDAH SAYANG, UDAH BELA2IN TU COWOK2, BIARPUN DILEPEHIN, BIARPUN DISAKITIN, BIARPUN BIARPUN BIARPUN...
karena apapun yang terjadi saat ini, kita pernah mendapatkan kebahagiaan dari mereka... yang paling puentinggg... kita dapet pelajaran dari menyayangi mereka... pelajaran yang membuat kita jadi lebih bisa menghargai perasaan sayang itu... ;p (s.t.u.j.i.z)

ps. saat ini gw juga lagi belajar untuk "setia" dengan perasaan gw sendiri...

hah, menyenangkan!
(abis foto2 dengan dandan sejam dan sesi foto cuma 10 menit dan "gelo sesyen" @ blend)

hey para mojang... kata diana, jodoh kita tuh ga jauh2 (katanya sih jaraknya 2 km aja)---> njir... 2km? ada 3 kemungkinan dong, hauehuahea... maksudnya sih ga jauh2... jadi... (??? aing lieur)

goodbye september, the saddest of word... (swandive - goodbye september 1998)

a li'l bit to share with u guys... a story about my dear stupid friend, si aku...

pernah kepikiran ga, mau sesakit apa perasaan kita, mau sesedih apa, mau seputus-asa apa, mau sepengen-mati apa, mau segila semiring apa, dunia ini ga peduli! dunia ini tetep berputar!
Parah kan? Kita rasanya udah ga ada keinginan untuk apapun, udah masa bodo sama hidup, tapi masih ada kerjaan yang harus kita kerjain, masih ada PR yang harus dikumpulin, masih ada kamar yang harus diberesin, badan yang harus dimandiin (bau soalnya kalo ga mandi sih!), pokoknya, mau se-ancurnya rasa yang ada di hati kita, tetep aja, LIFE KEEPS ON MOVING.... Dia ga akan berenti jalan di tempat nungguin kita sampe kita bisa move on lagi... Ga bakal...

Happened to my friend, si aku...
si aku ini berharap, dengan hancurnya hatinya, pupusnya harapannya tentang satu cinta, duniapun akan berpihak sama dia. Paling ga, si aku berharap temen-temen deketnya selalu ada buat dia, si aku berharap deadline tugasnya bisa molor sampe waktu yang ditentukan si aku sendiri, si aku berharap semua lagu sedih ato lagu cinta yang ngingetin si aku sama si dia itu di-stop pemutarannya di radio, pengennya semua tempat resto-cafe-bioskop-tempat belanja-hotel yang pernah ada cerita sama si dia ditutup atau ilang ketelen bumi biar kenangannya juga ilang...
Temanku tersayang, tapi bodoh... si aku...

Temen-temen deketnya emang ada buat dia, dengerin segala macem keluh kesahnya (termasuk GW!), ikutan terharu saat dia nangis sesenggukan, ikut patah hati saat dia bilang hatinya hancur, jadi ikutan ngerokok edan sampe pusing, ikutan panik saat dia nyetirnya ugal-ugalan... Tapi temen-temen deket si aku temenku itu cuma bisa sampe situ... Temen-temen deket si aku (termasuk gw) ga bisa ngerasain exact feeling, rasa sakit, sesek nafas, perih hati yang dirasain si aku.
Tugas tetep harus dikerjain dan dikumpulin sesuai jadwal yang ditentuin, lagu cinta dan lagu sedih tetep aja diputer di radio, semua tempat yang ngingetin si aku sama si dianya tetep aja ada, GA ADA YANG BERUBAH, kecuali hidup si aku temenku tersayang yang bodoh itu...

Si aku, sebenarnya harus bisa menerima... harus bisa! Semakin dia ga bisa menerima, semakin dia akan merasa mati... padahal si aku temanku itu, orangnya asik, menyenangkan, rame, menarik, ga kalah lah sama mojang-mojang jaman sekarang! banyak kok yang suka sama dia, cuma emang dasar, dia ga bisa suka sama orang yang suka sama dia duluan. Tipe-tipe hunter lah... si aku ini harus suka duluan dan berjuang ngedapetin orang itu! dasar perempuan jaman sekarang!

dear si aku, my dear but stupid friend... there's nothing u can do to change the destiny... it's all meant to be, darling. All you can do, all we can do is making all the things that happen in our lives worth living... love you, my friend...