reality bites

reality... that's what we should be facing... we can't hide from reality, if we do so, what kind of person we would be?

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maybe what i'm doing right now is hiding from reality.
i'm blinded myself from the reality. i might be living in my own fantasy.

you know what, my friends...
i feel something that i've had lost once. maybe i looked tough back then, i did cry but then i covered it up with laughter.
now, the time is kind to me. i got it back what i've lost before. i wanna embrace it, i want to hold on to it and won't let go, yet...
maybe it's just for a while. like my friend said, either i'd realize it's wrong or him who feels so.
i kinda mixed up here... sometimes i wanna ask the up above, what's wrong with my life? can i just have what other people have? a normal life? but i was too afraid to ask the up above that question. it seems like i don't cherish my life...

my friends... i've tried and still am... to have a normal life.
i'm not defending, but i can't fight this feeling i have right now.
i feel alive... so alive... my life is full with smile, i have the feeling that brightened even my darkest hour...
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my friends, i promise you all... i know it only leads me to misery... next time i'm down, i won't take you there... i'm gonna face it by myself...

my friends... thank you for being there for me... love u all...