dear my girl friends out there...

i just realize, how stoopid i was...

and i hope that my stoopid action, my experience, could mean something, so that u don't have to experience yourself.

here's the story.

when i was with this guy, whom i loved so much, i was kinda' telling him that i'd got nothing to lose if someday he'd leave me.
i told him that i still have some guys out there that adored me and willing to do anything for me.
i told him that if someday u decide to leave, just leave. i could manage my life.
(at that time, i was just showing off, maybe i was testing him... and maybe i fear him leaving so much that i got so defensive)

the more he told me to let go of those guys and just to be with him, I just showed him my frown face (but if he could see what’s inside my heart, i was smiling with joy…).

but then, he decided to leave eventually,
and he really did leave me,
i was frozen.
i almost die...
in fact, i had reached my flat line.

as today, i just realize, maybe, if only,
if... i didn't say sucha' words, maybe, he's still there for me.
i am not a no one for him.
at least, if we did have to be on our own way, it wouldn't be like this.
it's gonna still taste sweet...

so dear girl friends,
if u really love someone, tell him, let him know that u will give him whole, not less.
let him feel your complete love...
never say such words that lead u to regrets.
your words is your prayer, don’t let your words against your dream.
if u do love someone, tell them.
never ashamed of what u feel when it’s pure and true…